This will be short, but I just wanted to check in.
Jonah and I have had a very rough week. Sunday through Thursday was spent with him not being able to tolerate his formula and throwing up and me cleaning up vomit and trying to figure out what in the crap was going on. The last few days I've spent blending food, cleaning up my kitchen over and over and over again, calculating calories, working on a ridiculously detailed spreadsheet, and struggling to keep Jonah fed and hydrated. He's not throwing up now because I've cut out bottles completely. He's getting three tube meals a day (and whatever solids he'll eat by mouth) and getting an overnight drip of water and/or Pedialyte. Right now we're doing 20 ml per hour. I can't get him to drink any fluids by mouth during the day.
And on top of all that, he has been EXTREMELY fussy and often times inconsolable. I don't think it's physical pain because when I put him in the car or put on one very specific video or let him play with his ball popper, he's fine. But ANYTHING else ticks him off - including going places, even Target. He's never been unhappy in Target. My mom moved into a new house today, and I took him over there for about an hour and a half this afternoon, and he fussed and cried the entire time. We're having a hard time finding time to leave the house between nap times, food prep, 45 min to one hour feeding sessions, clean up and dressing change. This past week, he got to go to church on Sunday and Target on Friday. And then we got out once today. But even when we do get out, the only time he's happy is in the car... not when we arrive at our destination.
I haven't blogged much about all of this because honestly, I've been so tired, frustrated, and ticked off, I knew I would just sound whiny and be a downer. So anyway, I'm going to try not to complain too much, but it has been a long week.
I really ask for prayers for whatever is going on with Jonah that's making him so difficult. Maybe it's teething, but it sure is selective teething. I'm really wondering if it's behavioral and if it's that Jonah is cooped up in this house so much, he's really starting to have trouble adjusting to situations outside of the normal (our toys, our house, me). That makes me so sad.
So anyway, I'm looking forward to next week, and I'm so glad Matt's off work on Monday.
